Come near to God, and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8
Time has taught me a lot about myself. First, a lie never lasts long! So let’s be clear; I’m talking about my lie in not wanting to believe in myself and my abilities, even keeping them quiet to fit society’s criteria.
By not willing to see the people around me for who they are and not for who I saw in them, what I hoped they would become by using their potential in them.
We can’t help; we can’t change someone who doesn’t want to, but we can change our vision and our perception of things by acting on ourselves first. As someone said before me, change comes first through oneself.
My lie ended when I understood (finally) that my happiness depended only on me and not on what my entourage wanted me to believe or be.
My happiness starts by being who I truly am. Therefore, I cannot expect what I am not capable of being towards others.
You will probably say, think that I was ashamed! Not at all! I felt that I was not and would never be like the others, no matter what I tried to do.
I had to become fully aware of this and assert myself, affirm who I am by taking my place in this world where I belong, after all.
I look outside; I look at humans living their lives without wondering what is happening. Everyone has their battle to fight.
So I stopped explaining wretched behavior or lack of constancy. Instead, I’m committed to acting like a human being according to my value.