Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13
Time, days, months go by, and I still don’t understand. So, I do not try to understand anymore. People do what they do for their own needs.
The way you talk to me, your lack of empathy, and your coldness. You humiliated me and all that you represented near or far to me. I did nothing to deserve this contempt all for what?
Lust over love! Thanks! I’m past. I choose me, dear; there is no time for mind games, lies, manipulations, or rumors about me because you are afraid of love. Afraid to be you, afraid to let the world knows and see who you indeed are: a liar and a coward.
Well, now, with hindsight and after fears, misunderstanding, unspoken words, I admitted that I was in denial to accept this reality.
I realized that the work started with me. So, I stopped putting myself down for people in low vibration. To get what: crumbs!
No, I deserve much better than that. I know what I bring to the table into a relationship. Always the one who responds, and when it’s my turn, there is only God on my side. Your name is holy in this case. So, I left, choosing myself this time, for once. Stopped putting anyone if it’s not God above me A N Y M O R E.
Today, I want to taste this happiness to which I am also entitled. Already, by myself, for myself, and one day, with the right person who will be for me. I wish you that too.
Someone grounded, knowing what he wants, what he is. Not afraid to stand for himself and tell the truth. First for him and others. Someone like myself. I finally learned the lesson I needed to know for what came on my way.
I forgive myself for letting you into my life, you, you who, in the end, hurt me more than anyone. I forgive you; I don’t blame you and wish you good luck and all the happiness in the world.
So do I. I am making it happen.